I have spent my entire working career directing and dedicating myself to my desired passions and visions within the design world. The wild thing is that I now feel like I’m slowly dismantling it. Not out of frustration, but more from the aspect of letting go of the need for positions and titles.

I completely agree that making a simple statement of, “I’m a _______________!” Fill in the blank with your chosen career, job, or preferred lifestyle direction, makes it all very simple, especially in introductions. I have always been very proud of what I do and the elements that I have created in my life. But now, it feels different.

I seem to be gravitating towards embracing the point that I have nothing more to prove anymore, or anyone.

But it even feels bigger than that; a majority of us spend are whole life cultivating an identity. Sometimes with great accomplishments. But as many of us know, it’s so much more than a title, accomplishment, or a preferred lifestyle. But embracing that simple statement and then harnessing or limiting our desires, visions, and aspirations is almost like taking the oxygen out of the room, especially true for me years ago.

It’s as though your whole world evolves around that next vision or desire. Even though for me personally, it wasn’t as though I felt compelled to complete that project because my whole world would change in its aftermath. It was more about fulfilling a vision, to see what that vision would look like in 3D, and if something special and positive came from that vision coming to life, then that’s even more fabulous! But now, it’s as though I want to sit back and allow!

That is a very difficult position for me. I like to create; in fact, I still paint, so that is something I still do, not have to do…but like to do.

I think what I’m trying to say here is that I want to get out of my own way and see what unfolds organically. Maybe my visions were too limiting. Who knows. Life is one giant experiment, I find it fascinating that it really doesn’t matter what you desired, achieved, or created. Oh, that was hard to write! The only thing that matters is that you’re living in alignment with your highest purpose by stepping aside and allowing that alignment. Your true purpose may have nothing to do with a chosen career. But, in order to be in alignment, you need to be in a space of allowing and observing. Sitting back and watching it unfold.

That’s the part where I scratch my head. Aren’t you supposed to gather the wood first, to create the fire? The wood won’t chop itself?

So, this a very personal deep dive. Stay tuned; let’s see where this road takes me!

xx gail